My window feeder birds wait out the night
on hidden branches of nearby shrubs and pines
where writhing winter winds can’t reach them quite
the way they would along the power lines.
My window feeder birds retard the cold
with shivers in a frantic, desperate haste—
they burn themselves, beneath their down to hold
the heat, to save themselves from frigid waste.
My window feeder birds resist the wind,
though not by strength of grip or force of will:
The touch of inner balance keeps them pinned
to perch, to life, despite the gusts and chill.
We seek the balance when the night blows stark
and shiver as we hold on through the dark.
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A winter’s dream
He lived the worsted winter months, content
and warm, beside his glowing coals. His walls
protected him from prairie winds that would,
if wild, leave waning hearts in withered hides
of all who stood exposed. But here, beneath
the wind, away from stinging snows, in close
to his own fire, he sang a song of thanks.
He pressed his hands against the earth to feel
its quiet force, to touch the womb of his
own strength, to suck the scent of this, his home.
A dawn arrived so crisp and clear the light
beyond his walls crept in and kissed his eyes
awake. The sun caressed his face and drew
him out, it seemed, with whispers soft and new.
The light was unlike any he had seen:
so brilliant, pure and sure it hurt his eyes;
so beautiful and strong he could not look
away. He stretched his arms toward the sun
as if he meant to hold it close, embrace
the heat and press the light against his breast.
“I waited long for you. I saw you in
my dreams. I knew I’d love you when you came.”
He closed his eyes. “And now that you are here,
I know you will not stay with me. Your walk
along my path is short; your journey’s pace
is swift. I know that you have danced across
the mountain tops, that you have run untamed
with horses on the distant plains, that you
have heard the secret songs of streams unknown.
I know you long for them again, so go.”
He bowed his head and smiled. “In dreams, I’ve held
you near a hundred times and not been burned.
Before you came, I touched your flame, embraced
your fire and felt the life that flows from you.”
He raised his face toward the sky again.
“I know it cannot be. Your touch would mean
the end of me.” He shook his head. “I have
no want for life to live a dream or dreams
to come to life: to see your light today
is sweeter even than the dream. Enough.”
He lived the worsted winter months, content
and warm, beside his glowing coals. His walls
protected him from prairie winds that would,
if wild, leave waning hearts in withered hides
of all who stood exposed. But here, beneath
the wind, away from stinging snows, in close
to his own fire, his heart was full of thanks.
His fingers wrapped around his flute and lips
blew happy songs of love: for light, for heat,
for hints of spring that dance within a dream.
Our tradition
We like these woods the best in snow.
We’re brought here by the season though,
to cut our family Christmas tree.
Which one is right, the kids will know.
They run the rows, the better to see
atop which pine our star should be–
“It’s this one! This one! This one here!”
–until on one we all agree.
We linger in these woods so dear
to feel the warmth of Christmas cheer,
and then our silent oath declare
to this tradition we revere.
The woods feel like a living prayer,
but there’s a feast we must prepare,
…. and hours of love that we must share.
…. And hours of love that we must share.
The hunt
The snow that hid between furrowed rows
collected somber whispers of early light
and lifted just enough of nighttime’s shroud
to make the going there a thing a man
could do.
……….. He stood a while, confused, unsure
of where to take a step. “I’ve lost my way,”
He thought, “I’ve got to get a grip.” He moved
his hands along the rifle stock to shift
the weight and ease the load.
……..
………………………………………. “I’m here.”
He heard his father’s voice again, still soft,
“I’m here.”
...….
Then, from the gray, a form emerged
and walked ahead as if to lead the way.
He knew this form from years of watching it:
The heavy shoulders and hunting coat of red
and black; the heavy boots that marked a gait
as sure as it was long; the easy smile;
the eyes of welcome warmth; the air of grace.
…….
“I’m lost,” he said aloud. “And I’m afraid.”
…….
The form, familiar, stood atop a rise
and turned to him. “You’re where you’re meant to be.
You’re mine: You’re strong. We’ll hunt this land for years
to come. I’m just across this other side,
down out of sight, but you’ll still know I’m here.
You stay. Hunt here for now. Time comes, you follow me.”
…….
The sunlight broke the crest as he watched his father walk away.
Thanksgiving Day
Beyond the steam that gently hung above
the plates of mashed potatoes, yams and corn,
she saw her mother’s face. The misty veil
could not disguise the sorrow in her eyes
or hide the pain that creased her lips
and set her jaw in rigid, stoic lines.
….
She whispered, “Mom” and reached to touch
her hand. “Are you OK?”
……………………………. A tired smile
came slowly in reply, then nothing more.
……
She took the plate of turkey, passed it through
the steam toward her mother’s empty dish.
She held the offer longer than she thought
she should, then put it down and looked around
the table: all of them were watching her.
Her children looked away. Her sister wiped
a tear. Her husband held her gaze – his way,
she knew, to give her strength. But no one ate.
…..
Her mother said, “It isn’t right,” and turned
toward an empty chair as if to ask
for help remembering the thing that still
was missing – caught herself and shook her head.
…..
She thought she heard her mother sigh, and took
her hand again. “What is it, Mom? What’s wrong?”
She drew her breath in hard and asked,
“Is it because he’s gone?”
………..
……………………………. Her mother smiled.
“Oh no – he’s never gone.” She smiled again
and said, “He loved this day the best. And how
he loved this meal!” She stopped to scan the food
as if to find the thing she thought astray.
……
She caught her mother’s glance. “Everything is here.
You’ve made it just the way he liked it, Mom.
Now can we eat? It is what Dad would want.”
…..
“No, wait!” Her husband stood and pushed his chair.
“I think I know the missing piece. Hang on.”
He walked into the living room — a pause –
then came the call: “The Lions have the ball.”
He sat again and, with a wink, he said,
“The game was always on. Please pass the rolls.”
….
Her mother stood and moved toward the door.
She turned, came slowly back, then leaned to kiss
his head. “I s’pose –” she stopped, then laughed and said,
“you know, I s’pose they’ll lose again this year.”
The view from the grave
The prairie broke in a range of hills with sides
of layered rock and crests as flat as the plains
below. We left the highway and headed north.
The paved road turned to gravel and, as it wound
its upward course, the gravel turned to dirt,
the dirt road narrowed, the piney forest closed
along the sides and the fading road became
a two-track. When the two-track ended at
a washout, we stopped the truck, climbed out and walked.
The hillside where the road had ended fell
away and, taking it, we cut across
a valley of cactus flowers growing wild,
ascended the farther slope and found a stand
–a thicker, richer stand–of trees. The air
was cool and moist among the fragrant boughs,
and pausing to rest and cleanse our throats of dust
we heard the flawless empty spaces sigh
a song of solitude and sweeter days
of untamed dreams and boundless chance. We thought
aloud how such an open place was as near
to paradise as we had ever seen. An hour
we walked the quiet hills for nothing more
than feeling them alive beneath our feet.
And then we saw it.
……………………… A tombstone, a modest stone,
with letters nearly lost to the wear of rain
and wind and snow. My brother read the name.
“It’s Mrs. Otis Tye,” he said. “She died
in January, 1882.”
….
“Out here?” I asked.
….
………………………. “I heard about them once,”
said he. “The Tyes were settlers. One winter night,
when Otis was away from home, the team
of horses got away and lost in snow.
Frontier gals being a hearty bunch, Ms. Tye
went out that night to fetch them back alone.”
……
“You gotta love a woman like that,” I said.
……
My brother nodded. “Crying shame they gave
her his name on the stone. She earned her own.”
…..
“The storm?”
…..
………………. “He found her on this very spot.
The house is standing yet, in part at least,
about a mile from here.” He waved his arm
toward the east. “It’s made of rocks from these
same hills.”
……..
……………. We stood alone among the rocks
and swallowed tepid water from our canteens–
a silent toast of sorts–and thought about
the turning of the circle. Frontier graves
were simple things: Her wooden box had long
returned to the earth from which it came, and she
was sure to follow close behind. We knew
the life the hills had given her, the life
that fueled the fire in her eyes, was now the life
that filled these scented grasses, held these trees
against the prairie winds and helped to close
the sacred hoop. We knew that it was right.
…….
I saw him squint toward the muffled calls
of far-off turkeys. “Want to go?” I asked.
……
He shook his head and turned his face to feel
the arid winds that blew across the plains
and rose against the rocks. “Let’s stay a while,”
he said, then smiled. “The air’s so clean, so clear,
it is amazing what I see from here.”
In the end
Oh sacred, final morning still,
Your frosted breath has chilled the air.
The hints of light above the hill
Evoke this humble, solemn prayer:
Enchant our hearts with unhurried pace,
Impede the rise of morning’s glow;
In mercy, allow a moment’s grace,
And pass the hours of this day slow.
Create a pause for whispers soft,
For those who need a last embrace,
For those who send their sighs aloft,
For those who love this weary face.
Oh sacred, final morning calm,
Delay the truth we know must come
Provide a modest healing balm,
For their sakes—slow, ‘til the day is done.
The river
The water starts so fast it tears the womb,
the Earth, from which it bubbles free and runs.
It cuts the soil from banks so sharp they trick
the feet and make the going there unsure.
It rolls the pebbles hard and pushes them
toward ideal, so smooth and clean and bright
they shine as gems so long as they are wet.
The river then is beautiful and fierce
and all that tries to turn its course is swept
away and torn apart and left as waste.
The water slows and widens soon, too soon.
The banks are gentle, firm, and rich with growth,
and walking, sitting, dreaming there bring joys
so sweet you think you’ll stay and never leave.
The river does not stem its flow for love.
It carries forward, growing broader, more
reflective in its gently rippled face.
At last the river’s winding course is done.
The river joins the greater body, lake,
or sea and is a single thing no more.
I’m going out to walk the river’s shore;
I’ll only stop to fish a meal or two
(and wade the shallows for a while, I may):
I know I won’t be gone long–you come too.
A porch light on
The long, hard road concedes no place for rest,
and cold, dark winds allow no time to pause,
so on, headlong, we plunge toward the west.
The sharp turns, slick with ice, extend their claws
to rake the highway free of we who yearn
too much to see the miles between us fade.
The dreary hours cause sleepy eyes to burn
and weary minds to conjure thoughts half made.
But through the mist you shine, the way torch-
lit towers called the sea-tossed ships to shore,
the way uneasy parents leave the porch
light on to greet their children at the door.
…. Seen through our hearts, you are a beacon bright,
…. a welcome home, a refuge from the night.
Baptism and benediction on the Brule
The trout ran strong and swift, the stream ran cold
and clear, and both ran past a pair of felt-
soled boots. The angler in the boots stood long
alone and watched the water rushing by.
The hair beneath his hat was graying, but
the hands that held his pole were still as thick and
hard as when they guided softer hands
and smaller boots down muddy banks to take
that first enchanting step on mossy rocks.
He turned and looked at tiny, gleaming drops
of sunlight dancing upstream where the boy
had caught a rainbow on a fly he’d tied
himself. Around the bend, a little way
beyond where he could see, was where the boy
had caught his first and found his private joy.
He watched the water, waiting, aching to see
the colored pebbles that were not what they
seem rise through swaying shafts of light and hold
near ripples, glitter-capped and quick, until
they tap the surface, take a bite and flash
away. He watched the Mayflies lift and fall
on gossamer wings that fluttered helplessly
against the breeze until they failed. The frail
and floating insects, their genetic task
complete, returned the river’s gift. He looked
across to where the boy and he had sat
to wait for countless suns to sink and call
the trout to rise. There, in the cool of grass
still soft, still moist, still shaded by the trees,
the words were easy. Fears had fallen there
and drowned beneath the current. Dreams were born
and carried high on summer winds. So sweet
was one, it swept away the dreamer–yet
no sweeter than the one that brought, and kept,
the other here. The angler bowed his head
toward the stream and, smiling, waded in.