The trout ran strong and swift, the stream ran cold
and clear, and both ran past a pair of felt-
soled boots. The angler in the boots stood long
alone and watched the water rushing by.
The hair beneath his hat was graying, but
the hands that held his pole were still as thick and
hard as when they guided softer hands
and smaller boots down muddy banks to take
that first enchanting step on mossy rocks.
He turned and looked at tiny, gleaming drops
of sunlight dancing upstream where the boy
had caught a rainbow on a fly he’d tied
himself. Around the bend, a little way
beyond where he could see, was where the boy
had caught his first and found his private joy.
He watched the water, waiting, aching to see
the colored pebbles that were not what they
seem rise through swaying shafts of light and hold
near ripples, glitter-capped and quick, until
they tap the surface, take a bite and flash
away. He watched the Mayflies lift and fall
on gossamer wings that fluttered helplessly
against the breeze until they failed. The frail
and floating insects, their genetic task
complete, returned the river’s gift. He looked
across to where the boy and he had sat
to wait for countless suns to sink and call
the trout to rise. There, in the cool of grass
still soft, still moist, still shaded by the trees,
the words were easy. Fears had fallen there
and drowned beneath the current. Dreams were born
and carried high on summer winds. So sweet
was one, it swept away the dreamer–yet
no sweeter than the one that brought, and kept,
the other here. The angler bowed his head
toward the stream and, smiling, waded in.
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Season’s end
He pitched a lure across the stern and watched
it land beneath the pines that bent along
the shore, then glanced toward the man at the bow.
“Are you OK?”
………
………… “I’m rid of those tubes,
ain’t I? Look boy, if you are planning to play
doctor all day, I’ll lend you my pocket knife–
who knows?–you might find something the quacks left behind.”
……..
“I know it was rough, but they’re just trying to help.”
He reeled the lure, with a tug on a weedy snag.
……
“Ya, so they kept telling me. The look of the bear’s
a little different once you’re inside the den.”
The old one tested his line for strength, attached
his bait and looked out over the lake. “Oh, no–”
…….
“What’s the matter?”
…….
………………….. “I don’t have a license to fish
in Canada; they’ll come take our gear for sure.”
……..
“Relax; this isn’t Canada. Hey, you sure
you’re OK?”
…….
…………. “Of course I’m OK. I may be old
and worn out, but I’m twice the fisherman
you’ll ever be. Now quit treating me like a girl
and stay out of my way.” He made his cast,
but sounds of passing geese in southward skeins
drew longing lines around his fading eyes.
He closed his coat against the autumn chill.
…….
The trees along the banks were once a stand
of heroes–having strength and will enough
to mock the fates that put them there–but now
they sunk as withered husks, as easy prey
for winter’s first harsh wind. The young man turned
and trembled. “Dad, are you afraid to die?”
…….
“For the love of– What the hell kind of question is that?
I swear I’ll never figure out why you
have to talk about everything all the time.”
…….
“I thought you’d want to talk. I thought it would help.
Forget it.”
……..
…………..“Afraid I’ll leave you out of my will?”
…….
“Damn it all, Dad. You know better than that.”
He held his rod tip high, looking for a place
to make another cast. “I’ll tell you why.
I talk because I’m scared to death.”
…….
………………………………….“Of what?”
………
“Of what? Of what? Of all of it. Of you.
Of losing myself after you–”
……
………………………..”“That’s enough.”
………
“Hold on!”–he jerked the line to set the hook,
and pulled it tight to hold the fish he thought
he had caught. “It’s a big one. Quick, get the net.”
……
“Keep your rod up, line tight.”
……..
…………………………“I am. I am.
Must be twenty pounds or more. Listen to the drag
screamin’. You set with that net? She’s comin’ up.”
……..
“All set.” The old one leaned over the edge
and looked into the water. “What the hell
is that? Afraid, that ain’t a fish there, boy.”
…….
He pulled a dead, decaying goose in close
and worked to free the snag. “Oh, Dad– Poor thing.
The big old bird just couldn’t make it through
another year. He really fouled my line.”
……
“Hurry and cut it loose, damn it. Let it go.”
The old one laid down his rod and fixed his eyes
on the distant shore.
…………The young one cut the line.
……..
“I’ll miss you, Dad.”
…….
……………“Huh? What? What did you say?”
…….
“Nothing.”
…………The father looked at his son and a nod
of knowing eased them both. “Let’s go home, son.”